Silence is such a rare and unappreciated thing... Even when the city stops, our minds don’t, and it’s almost impossible to feel the silence, which should be something usual in our lives. People talk way too much, criticising the others, showing their “superiority”, when we’re all equally strong and weak; the only difference is where the weakness and the strenght shows for each one. Karel’s voice saying that life can be so beautiful sometimes is a torment for me, because I can’t find a way of being such a strong and brave person as he is. I keep on thinking about his amazing smile, his good mood, his fantastic inteligence, and ask myself if I could ever be 10% of everything of good that he is. I know that no one can be like other person, but he’s such a good example that I can’t avoid to take into consideration to use his as an inspiration, no matter how hard it can be for me. I wish I could be always near him, ‘cause I know how much he is good for me, but life isn’t that easy. Reality keeps on pushing me away from everything I truly wish to be, and I lose myself for things so meaningless that I get embarassed just of remembering this. Where is the strenght, when we need it the most? These are scaring times, which can be the prelude of the best or the worst. Where is the courage, and the certainty? Ok, there is no certainty for anyone, just strong feelings – yet, where are they? I can’t understand anything.
I remember her drowning. It was a rainy day, and there was an accident very close to the waters. She falleth and just... stopped swimming. I cried without stopping for hours, but here she is, years after, stronger than ever.
I know that outside things can’t change people, most of the times. The changing has to come from the inside, and I truly hope we never lose that skill. I know there is a chance to survive, and more than that, a chance to live, but there’s a lot to be done before anyone reaches that point. And, hopefully, I’ll reach that. With Karel.
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